Super Bowl Sunday

Well, I don't know if the NFL is going to fine me for posting to my blog, but we'll see...

Anyhow, the day started out really weird, so weird that I need to get it out there.

I had a dream that pretty much my friends hated me. Okay, that's the short boring version...

In the dream, Kim and I were together with Bob, Lisa, Bryan and Michele and for some reason they were all surrounding me (don't ask why, it was a dream). Bob started it out by telling me that he and Lisa only asked me to hang out with them out of sheer pity and nothing else. They felt bad that I was such a "pathetic loser" that they felt sorry for me and asked me to hang out. He then told me that I wasn't worth having around at work since I never seem to be able to get anything done.

Michele and Bryan told me that they only ever wanted me around when it suited Kim's needs and that they were only being nice as a favor to Kim and that it became increasinly hard to fake their friendship.

Kim then told me that the only reason why we were going out was because she had a bet going for the low value price of $1.00 that she could pretend to fall in love with me and then essentially crush me like a bug. She then got the dollar (from somewhere) held it out in front of me and said that we were through and how could I ever expect anyone to love me.

After all that was done, I told Dan and Chris and Dawn what had happened, they just told me that I brought it on myself for ever thinking that I could be happy and that since I turned my back on them, that they didn't care about what had happened to me.

So naturally, I woke up all freaked out about the dream, but I wasn't really sure what the hell to do about it. All of the natural (Scott natural anyways) reactions came up which was maybe some of this was true at least on some level. I kept telling myself that I was clearly insane, but an annoying part of my brain kept holding onto the dream...

Then, Kim and I went to church.

I mostly forgot about the dream until the Pastor's sermon then it all came crashing down around me, I was blown away by the topic which was surrounding yourself with friends, lonliness, and having a hole in your heart. (Yes, for those of you paying attention, they played Extreme's Hole-Hearted during the service.)

It made for a weird morning, after helping my sister with her computer and her phone, Kim and I watched part of the Super Bowl and had some great food that her Mom made. Although, those were the smallest chicken wings I've ever seen. :D